Feelin' Alive (Woulda been bedda if I'd Died)

V1 Well it woulda been better if I died

Wouldn’t have to live with accusing eyes

Now my reputation's all gone wrong they say

He was just a bad guy all along

V2 The best time to die that would have been

Leave it all behind with a wave and a grin

Now people hate me and that can’t be changed

They won’t even allow me to be deranged

CHORUS

From the people in the world I’m running away

From the pressure of the world avoiding every day

But feeling strong a revolution in my life

Feeling good feeling alive

Feeling alive [x4]

V3 well it would have been bedda if I’d come out gay

That would be more acceptable in every way

Sometimes there are choices that make more sense

When you’re done with sitting on the fence

CHORUS From the people .....

Feeling alive [another 4]

Composition Notes

Probably one of the most personal lyrics written after being gaslighted by my family. Fortunately my new situation is very good so the previously inevitable fatalistic feelings didn't emerge and I got it into a song instead. Still feels pretty sad though.

Production very sparse just nylon guitar, piano, ep, synth bass & shaker. The stone mute trumpet is a staple of 80's soft erotic movies which was the only smut on telly in those days.

Recorded 2024